Will you?

Don't let the past hold you back,
cause soon you'll realise that life is short
Live it.

/ Friday, February 27, 2009 { 9:11 PM }

I.am.made.of.metal.
That's what my mom says.
I never knew the limit i should do for sports.
Or probably there isn't one in the first place.
My mind is fighting against my body.
The fight of, "You are better than what you think you are, push.".
It was hard,
but I did, and i realised it too.

This week has been busy and stressful.
I can't believed that i actually woke up at 5 in the morning to study for my Chinese test.
And it turned out that another teacher who set the paper actually told his class the specific words to study.
@#!@$%$?!
I was also crapping my way through in the chem test that day too.
Sec 3 life really very troublesome.
Also in some other aspects.

Sports heat.
Highlight of the week.
Though i don't feel nervous or anticipate for it.
Well, i my 100m sprint was a close shave.
I prayed to God that if i won't get any medal, please don't pass the heats.
And i didn't, so thank God.
Anyway, i was the fourth behind hidayah ):
For 400m, i was second, but since there are 2 heats and it was the finals that day, i don't think i will get any medal since the third to be is much faster than me.
I almost gave up cause i saw the 3 other canoeists in front of me during the last 100m.
Then suddenly Mr.Mohammad (how to spell-.-) cheered me on and i sprinted all the way...
So..left 4x100m relay on the day itself!
Gonna give my best shot once and for all.
If it's not meant for me this year, then, oh well (:

STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY
TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST
ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW
RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN
PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH
MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE
= stress.

What is stress?
It happens when you tell yourself you can't do something.
But what can be compared to the little successes you can achieve?
I was on my way home when i saw a white-haired old woman on a wheelchair with a lady behind pushing the wheels.
Her face was dreamy and joyful, something that was opposite from mine.
I was tired, weary and down casted.
I was defeated by the setbacks i faced.
I want to have the same smile like the old woman's when i grow old someday.
Thinking of the goals i once had.
The perseverance and determination i had.
The courage to face problems.
The undeterred me that was i was once a brave girl.
All i can do now i to live my life to the fullest.
Pick myself up after setbacks.
With God's help.
Yes, that is it.

I wonder if u ever understand how it feels.
It's hard to explain it.

Labels: canoeing, sports, sports heat

/ Saturday, January 10, 2009 { 12:28 PM }

I.finally.get.to.rest.today.
This week did not go very well for me as i'm still not used to the timetable yet.
Let's see...

MON: PE, phy, maths (a&e), chem, el, bio, school ends at 4. After that, canoeing land training. Home at 6.
TUE: el, chi, ss, maths(a&e), Egeog, bio, school ends at 4. After that, maybe eill have canoeing training. Home: 6.
WED: common test, el, maths(a&e), phy, chem, maths(a&e)-again, chi. school ends at 2.50.After that that, canoeing water training. Home: 6+/7+.
THURS: Chi, maths(a&e), phy, chem, ss, school ends at 2:15. After that, maths tuition at 3.30. Home: 6.
FRI: el, Egeog, maths (a&e), chi, assembly/class.(probably will have phy after school) school ends at 12.30 or 1. After that, canoeing water training. Home: 5+.

Monday, first day of the week, we have to carry the 3 thick books of phy chem and bio to school, cause we arent allowed to put any of them under our desk.
Everyday home around 6.
Bio lessons teacher told us that he was not to give us any notes cause we are THREE ONE.
and if u dont study bio at home at your own, u wont understand what the heck the teacher is talking about. (just like last tues, an wasted hour trying to get what the teacher is saying but to no avail)
Phy lessons went like a bullet train(what carissa said), and the teacher said that she WAS going too slow, cause not enough time and we are THREE ONE.
Oh, and she's the teacher who would use marker and draw/poke on your face if ur homework not done properly and stuffs.
Thank God she missed out table that day.
More than half of the class people had their faces drew on. =='
We're having an integrated maths of a and e, so only 1 teacher teaching both, who we have to see EVERYDAY, but she's quite nice, and i have my extra maths tuition so i could consider it a lesson i can cope with.
Chem, well it's alright, just some recaps of last year work, which everyone says it's easy.
El, dont bring homework, watch out. other than that, the teacher is nice.(form teacher)
Chi, the teacher claims that she is a very good teacher. Alright i admit she's rather nice.( cause she hadn't scolded us yet, and said that we are a good school in terms of students' character although it is a neighbourhood school)
She promised us to get a A for O levels next year if we do her work.
I will try my best to brush up my chinese, as well as english.
Social studies, Mr Azahar!(:
He's funny nice and blur, lols. ^^
Egeog, alright now, hope that the friendly giant would really help us in our studies.
PE, same teacher as last yr, nth much.
Took height and weight that day, and i thot i would gain weight cause i ate a mountain in the hols, but found out that i i lost a little, but the height stays the same. ( i wanna grow 1 more cm!)

Yesterday
Registered our ic in school! (the first yr of mobile team registration)
The process was so fast, unlike those who queue for hours last year and the past.
& we can get our ic next month! ^^
we're blessed to start the mobile plan this year (:

Training was a bad day because of that, that and that, which was rather disappointing.
Really needa buck up.
.__.
Lost hope in the future of our team.

After training, went to collect my scholarship edusave at the cc, and got $500.
I wanna thank God cause he have already given me a lot, although i always grumble. ;x
Sorry! ._.

Today
Woke up at 12!
So shuang! :P
The week days, i always sleep at 12 plus and wake up at 6 plus.
I'm a 12-hours sleeper!
School, actually stole half of my sleeping time.
I was nearly late last wed.
Oh well, i should just say i'm not early instead of being late.
HAHA.

This post so long and wordy.
Wanna stop here already.
Dont think i will blog so often now, unless there isn't any homework or i finished them.
but i dont think so cause i will be in bed the moment i finsh my homework to catch my sleep!
Surprisingly, there isn't much homework this weekend.
So time to study later.
BUT NOW, going to enjoy my free time first. (:
Lazy to colour anything..=='

bye humans ^^

Labels: canoeing, school

/ Monday, December 15, 2008 { 8:04 PM }

I,
Pon-ned training today.
.
.
.
HAHA, no la. :D
Woke up at 12 and had sore eye cause i rubbed last night, before i sleep..
T.T (i so naughty)
Miraculously, it was alright especially after 1.30! (the time canoeing starts) HAHA
Went to have a hair cut, (my fringe._.) and went shopping with mom and xinhui cousin ^^
Bought dress, cardigans, skirt, belt. (:
Left shoes to match my dress which i planned to wear on Christmas.
But i not sure if i have time to shop for it though...
Xinhui bought her formal working top, nice fit! ;}
Robbed of my mom's 3-digit $$$ today, hahaha.

Yesterday
After church went NYDC with my team from SurvivorII, the Golden knights! :)
Had lunch there, but it was a late one due to the travelling and waiting time...
6 people, 3-digit $$$ again.
& i only managed finsh half of my pasta D:
The voucher we won wasn't enough for a meal, but only dessert.
but, oh well ;P
After lunch, went home by train with Kailin.
Had seafood dinner with my relatives.
Ate my lunch at 0330,
finish at 0430 (i assume)
Dinner starts at 0730
BLOATED, haha.
Xizhe finally got to eat his dear crab, which was spicy to me. );
HOW MUCH WE SPENT NOW?
It was a treat, HAHAHA ^^
Had so much great food today, i'm sure the number on the weighing scale went up.
Blehh. :D

The day before yesterday(Friday)
WATER TRAINING.
Shona is still not back.
And she's not coming back for the last week of training (This week)
I know...
What else can i say, but, haix.
Took k2 with lindsay.
Had resistors connected to it, and it was like, 'awww'.
Imagine continously paddling for a near-half-an-hour.
coach said it will slow down the boat by 50-60%. (did i remembered correctly? or it is 50-70%?)
It mean x2 of out strength to move an inch of the boat.
The last part, we were practically using our bones to paddle...
I'm so weak.
The amount of time i have to train is not enough,
the amount of time i have with my partner is not enough,
the amount of passion i have in canoeing is not enough,
not enough to keep me going.
But today's ODB says: 'Looking for someone who won't disappoint you? Look to Jesus."
Canoeing may disappoint me.
My friends may disappoint me.
My partner may disappoint me.
But Jesus won't.
Look to Jesus, leave my problems to him!
So Shona, I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR RETURN!
:D

Going watch last episode of Miss No good now.
PS: Jia Si Le(Dean Fujioka) is so cute! ^^

Labels: canoeing, NYDC, shopping