Don't let the past hold you back,
cause soon you'll realise that life is short
Live it.
cause soon you'll realise that life is short
Live it.
/ Friday, February 27, 2009
{ 9:11 PM }
I.am.made.of.metal.
That's what my mom says.
I never knew the limit i should do for sports.
Or probably there isn't one in the first place.
My mind is fighting against my body.
The fight of, "You are better than what you think you are, push.".
It was hard,
but I did, and i realised it too.
This week has been busy and stressful.
I can't believed that i actually woke up at 5 in the morning to study for my Chinese test.
And it turned out that another teacher who set the paper actually told his class the specific words to study.
@#!@$%$?!
I was also crapping my way through in the chem test that day too.
Sec 3 life really very troublesome.
Also in some other aspects.
Sports heat.
Highlight of the week.
Though i don't feel nervous or anticipate for it.
Well, i my 100m sprint was a close shave.
I prayed to God that if i won't get any medal, please don't pass the heats.
And i didn't, so thank God.
Anyway, i was the fourth behind hidayah ):
For 400m, i was second, but since there are 2 heats and it was the finals that day, i don't think i will get any medal since the third to be is much faster than me.
I almost gave up cause i saw the 3 other canoeists in front of me during the last 100m.
Then suddenly Mr.Mohammad (how to spell-.-) cheered me on and i sprinted all the way...
So..left 4x100m relay on the day itself!
Gonna give my best shot once and for all.
If it's not meant for me this year, then, oh well (:
STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY
TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST
ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW
RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN
PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH
MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE
= stress.
What is stress?
It happens when you tell yourself you can't do something.
But what can be compared to the little successes you can achieve?
I was on my way home when i saw a white-haired old woman on a wheelchair with a lady behind pushing the wheels.
Her face was dreamy and joyful, something that was opposite from mine.
I was tired, weary and down casted.
I was defeated by the setbacks i faced.
I want to have the same smile like the old woman's when i grow old someday.
Thinking of the goals i once had.
The perseverance and determination i had.
The courage to face problems.
The undeterred me that was i was once a brave girl.
All i can do now i to live my life to the fullest.
Pick myself up after setbacks.
With God's help.
Yes, that is it.
I wonder if u ever understand how it feels.
It's hard to explain it.
I.am.made.of.metal.
That's what my mom says.
I never knew the limit i should do for sports.
Or probably there isn't one in the first place.
My mind is fighting against my body.
The fight of, "You are better than what you think you are, push.".
It was hard,
but I did, and i realised it too.
This week has been busy and stressful.
I can't believed that i actually woke up at 5 in the morning to study for my Chinese test.
And it turned out that another teacher who set the paper actually told his class the specific words to study.
@#!@$%$?!
I was also crapping my way through in the chem test that day too.
Sec 3 life really very troublesome.
Also in some other aspects.
Sports heat.
Highlight of the week.
Though i don't feel nervous or anticipate for it.
Well, i my 100m sprint was a close shave.
I prayed to God that if i won't get any medal, please don't pass the heats.
And i didn't, so thank God.
Anyway, i was the fourth behind hidayah ):
For 400m, i was second, but since there are 2 heats and it was the finals that day, i don't think i will get any medal since the third to be is much faster than me.
I almost gave up cause i saw the 3 other canoeists in front of me during the last 100m.
Then suddenly Mr.Mohammad (how to spell-.-) cheered me on and i sprinted all the way...
So..left 4x100m relay on the day itself!
Gonna give my best shot once and for all.
If it's not meant for me this year, then, oh well (:
STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY
TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST
ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW ROW
RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN
PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH PUSH
MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE
= stress.
What is stress?
It happens when you tell yourself you can't do something.
But what can be compared to the little successes you can achieve?
I was on my way home when i saw a white-haired old woman on a wheelchair with a lady behind pushing the wheels.
Her face was dreamy and joyful, something that was opposite from mine.
I was tired, weary and down casted.
I was defeated by the setbacks i faced.
I want to have the same smile like the old woman's when i grow old someday.
Thinking of the goals i once had.
The perseverance and determination i had.
The courage to face problems.
The undeterred me that was i was once a brave girl.
All i can do now i to live my life to the fullest.
Pick myself up after setbacks.
With God's help.
Yes, that is it.
I wonder if u ever understand how it feels.
It's hard to explain it.
Labels: canoeing, sports, sports heat
/ Monday, February 23, 2009
{ 7:42 PM }
You'll never know.
The best of all are the ones
that can put on their widest smile in front of you.
The ones that cheered you on.
The ones that said you can do it.
The ones that tell you it's okay.
Yes, you're right.
Hypocrites.
Just like i met two of such in my life.
You'll never know.
Today's a day in a mess.
Just by one sentence.
How i wish i wasn't affected by it so much.
You'll never know.
The best of all are the ones
that can put on their widest smile in front of you.
The ones that cheered you on.
The ones that said you can do it.
The ones that tell you it's okay.
Yes, you're right.
Hypocrites.
Just like i met two of such in my life.
You'll never know.
Today's a day in a mess.
Just by one sentence.
How i wish i wasn't affected by it so much.
/ Saturday, February 21, 2009
{ 3:27 PM }
i don't feel like blogging today, so just some updates.
Bgss canoeing team has been using resistors for training lately, and u can expect all forms of resistors.
From standard rubber or sponge resistors, it turned out to become domestic bottles like fruit punch and orange juice bottles. (looks and sounds funny, but they helps)
Last wednesday our boat lost our rubber resistor halfway during the sets so coach made us use a 2litre softlan bottle.
I can tell you, the boat can hardly move.
Worse then a T2 boat.
Shona placed the rudder all the way to the left but the boat keeps going right(because of the resistance from the bottle), so we jumped lanes like nobody's business ;x
Yesterday we used 1 litre cooking oil bottle.
Better, but have to push hard.
After the sets, we took off our resistors(after weeks!) and did few sets of sprints.
& the water feels duper light.
but the balance was a bit off, and we were rushing our strokes a little.
Alright, i admit my strokes were totally screwed up yesterday ._.
And my stomach wasn't feeling right.
Never eat spicy food or rice/noodles before training!
T.T
School has been stressful ever since we got back our physics paper that almost everyone screwed up.
Still, i wanna thank God that i pass it.
Everyday have test.
I'm very worried about the physics CT next week.
I'm feeing very lazy whenever i see homework.
My mind is a blank when i see physics.
I'm confused about ____.
I have inhibiting friends.
But i hope i can still stay strong.
Praise the Lord.
i don't feel like blogging today, so just some updates.
Bgss canoeing team has been using resistors for training lately, and u can expect all forms of resistors.
From standard rubber or sponge resistors, it turned out to become domestic bottles like fruit punch and orange juice bottles. (looks and sounds funny, but they helps)
Last wednesday our boat lost our rubber resistor halfway during the sets so coach made us use a 2litre softlan bottle.
I can tell you, the boat can hardly move.
Worse then a T2 boat.
Shona placed the rudder all the way to the left but the boat keeps going right(because of the resistance from the bottle), so we jumped lanes like nobody's business ;x
Yesterday we used 1 litre cooking oil bottle.
Better, but have to push hard.
After the sets, we took off our resistors(after weeks!) and did few sets of sprints.
& the water feels duper light.
but the balance was a bit off, and we were rushing our strokes a little.
Alright, i admit my strokes were totally screwed up yesterday ._.
And my stomach wasn't feeling right.
Never eat spicy food or rice/noodles before training!
T.T
School has been stressful ever since we got back our physics paper that almost everyone screwed up.
Still, i wanna thank God that i pass it.
Everyday have test.
I'm very worried about the physics CT next week.
I'm feeing very lazy whenever i see homework.
My mind is a blank when i see physics.
I'm confused about ____.
I have inhibiting friends.
But i hope i can still stay strong.
Praise the Lord.
/ Monday, February 9, 2009
{ 9:43 PM }
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY aka VALENTINE'S DAY!
Woah, it's Friday again :D
I totally screwed up my ss test today.
My conclusion 6 words. T.T
Well, i just hope that i can pass my ss and physics which i may get back next week ):
This week has been fun i guess, if you count last sunday too.
It was canoeing seniors graduation party, which was held at Pasir ris park.
btw, KIM CAME MY CHURCH EVENTUALLY ;D
(welcome to come back again anytime^^)
After church we went to meet up lindsay, shona...then suddenly after i out from the toilet and saw all the sec 3s..(i have no idea where they popped out from haha)
We had truck loads of fun there! (except the rollerblading part-.-)
During rollerblading,
I fell three times and linds fell twice.
AND HER KNEE BLEED.
Because of me.
There was this hump and we held hands, and *PIANG*!
I was on my butt and lins was on her knees.
(u should know why i fell 3 times now cause there were 3 humps that i went pass-.-)
GUILTY! (every post have this word! }: )
._.
This week's water training was equivalent to no training.
On wed we only managed to go for 1km and there was lightning alert till 5.30 =='
So we did land trng instead and shared the shelter with tpjc.
One wasted day.
Today.
I caught a flu.
So i begged yongsoon to go up stage for me to do some pledge taking for the NRIC stuffs.
You can expect people coming to me ask why all chairpersons on the stage and i'm not.
I cannot afford screwing up the whole session by my sneeze ._.
ANYWAY, we're getting our ICs next tues! ^^
(hopefully the picture will turn out right==')
Flu=no canoeing
So while the rest were canoeing, i was sitting there with Mrs Choo and Mr Lim, and feeding mosquitoes.
You know what, out of the 7 bites i have ONE HEART-SHAPED BITE.
Love bite from Mr.Mossie for Valentine's.
The other canoeists found it cool, haha ;)
Due to time constrain, me shona linds and jessie were doing some land training and counted in Spanish, Japanese, Malay(all only can count till 7 HAHA), Chinese and English.
Cool eh? :)
There will be house training tmr.
830 be there.
I really dislike waking up early.
But after that going out with my sweeties for some serious SHOPPINGGGG! ^^
(finally after the hectic 1 month+, though it's just the start)
;x
Alright, my problem with blogging on fridays came.
I've forgotten what happened this week.
NVM, let the pictures talk now :)
Set off to : Pasir Ris!
Our seniors! Smile :)
*ChoMpz*
This is the first station we went.
Instead of having all the fun and stuffs, we found ourselves pushing the wheel for the kids who wanted to play.
When we were there at the start, there was nobody.
But after the kids who saw us having lots of fun, one by one came and we being OLDER and NICER pushed for them
Little cute peeps :D
(Ps: can see jess's crazy swing, haha^^)
Finally come fun to ourselves!
Nat at the flying fox thingy.
Lindsay! (sorry for that hard push, haha)
up the web, Shona, Heihei and Natalie...
down the slide!!
(i was stuck all the way because of the material of my shorts that cause FRICTION! ;x)
She gave up sliding down cause of the friction caused by her jeans!
So in the end she practically walked down the slide like a SPIPERMAN! haha :D
(:
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(omg can see my specs's tan line, ugly! ;x)
Flower in the dark.
Home sweet home :)
BELLA'S BEEN MIA FOR WEEKS.
To keep her in remembrance, her face was on Shona's second egg before it was being smashed.
Bye Bella, till we'll meet.
(probably in some teacher's book HAHA)
inside joke :D
Arshard's egg, smashed!
haha (:
ALOYSIUS, JOKE OF THE DAY. :D
God's love is a fabric that never fades,
no matter how often you wash it
in the water of adversity.
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY aka VALENTINE'S DAY!
Woah, it's Friday again :D
I totally screwed up my ss test today.
My conclusion 6 words. T.T
Well, i just hope that i can pass my ss and physics which i may get back next week ):
This week has been fun i guess, if you count last sunday too.
It was canoeing seniors graduation party, which was held at Pasir ris park.
btw, KIM CAME MY CHURCH EVENTUALLY ;D
(welcome to come back again anytime^^)
After church we went to meet up lindsay, shona...then suddenly after i out from the toilet and saw all the sec 3s..(i have no idea where they popped out from haha)
We had truck loads of fun there! (except the rollerblading part-.-)
During rollerblading,
I fell three times and linds fell twice.
AND HER KNEE BLEED.
Because of me.
There was this hump and we held hands, and *PIANG*!
I was on my butt and lins was on her knees.
(u should know why i fell 3 times now cause there were 3 humps that i went pass-.-)
GUILTY! (every post have this word! }: )
._.
This week's water training was equivalent to no training.
On wed we only managed to go for 1km and there was lightning alert till 5.30 =='
So we did land trng instead and shared the shelter with tpjc.
One wasted day.
Today.
I caught a flu.
So i begged yongsoon to go up stage for me to do some pledge taking for the NRIC stuffs.
You can expect people coming to me ask why all chairpersons on the stage and i'm not.
I cannot afford screwing up the whole session by my sneeze ._.
ANYWAY, we're getting our ICs next tues! ^^
(hopefully the picture will turn out right==')
Flu=no canoeing
So while the rest were canoeing, i was sitting there with Mrs Choo and Mr Lim, and feeding mosquitoes.
You know what, out of the 7 bites i have ONE HEART-SHAPED BITE.
Love bite from Mr.Mossie for Valentine's.
The other canoeists found it cool, haha ;)
Due to time constrain, me shona linds and jessie were doing some land training and counted in Spanish, Japanese, Malay(all only can count till 7 HAHA), Chinese and English.
Cool eh? :)
There will be house training tmr.
830 be there.
I really dislike waking up early.
But after that going out with my sweeties for some serious SHOPPINGGGG! ^^
(finally after the hectic 1 month+, though it's just the start)
;x
Alright, my problem with blogging on fridays came.
I've forgotten what happened this week.
NVM, let the pictures talk now :)
Set off to : Pasir Ris!
Our seniors! Smile :)*ChoMpz*This is the first station we went.Instead of having all the fun and stuffs, we found ourselves pushing the wheel for the kids who wanted to play.
When we were there at the start, there was nobody.
But after the kids who saw us having lots of fun, one by one came and we being OLDER and NICER pushed for them
Little cute peeps :D
(Ps: can see jess's crazy swing, haha^^)
Finally come fun to ourselves!Nat at the flying fox thingy.
Lindsay! (sorry for that hard push, haha)
up the web, Shona, Heihei and Natalie...
down the slide!!(i was stuck all the way because of the material of my shorts that cause FRICTION! ;x)
.
KIM'S PICTURE OF HER SLIDING DOWN WAS REMOVED BY HER REQUEST.
PS: IT WAS FUNNY, AND HAHA.
.
.
Jessica!
She gave up sliding down cause of the friction caused by her jeans!
So in the end she practically walked down the slide like a SPIPERMAN! haha :D
(: Me and Natalie, the philosophers :D
Me and Jessica! {:
Me, lindsay, natalie, jess
(omg can see my specs's tan line, ugly! ;x)
Flower in the dark.
Home sweet home :) BELLA'S BEEN MIA FOR WEEKS.To keep her in remembrance, her face was on Shona's second egg before it was being smashed.
Bye Bella, till we'll meet.
(probably in some teacher's book HAHA)
inside joke :D
Arshard's egg, smashed!haha (:
ALOYSIUS, JOKE OF THE DAY. :DGoing off, bye lovely readers! :D
p.s: pls pray for my flu! :)
What exactly do i want, i don't know.
Labels: canoeing seniors grad party, friendship day, pasir ris park
/ Friday, February 6, 2009
{ 9:40 PM }
Finally it's weekend! :D
I was actually looking forward to the weekend cause i thought that i could catch my sleep. T.T
BUT, i was told that tomorrow have training for sports day at Bedok Stadium.
Grr .__.
8.30, i will be there.
Body there, soul in bed.
Alright.
Tests homework tests homework.
Everyday is the same routine.
You know what i am going to do this weekend?
Of course,
preparing for tests homework tests homework.
._.
Today's training was a slight improvement from the previous trainings in this year.
I could see that we're recovering bit by bit after a one long month break from canoeing for my partner.
Though the progress is slow, but i could feel it and sense it. :)
Well, i concluded that JIEYI IS TOO EXCITED TODAY.
I was actually reminded by two that my strokes were not coordinating with Shona's!
How can that happen man, i can't believe.
The most basic thing that we have to get right, and i screwed it up.
You probably ask why i am excited.
I was so much reminded that TODAY IS FRIDAY, which is the last day of the weekdays.
Practically i wanted to finish it off asap, though it was a little overreacting :P
Though i was rushing, but i was enjoying the waves and the wind, the way the sky 'opened' and poured out it's gleaming sparkles on the waters.
Magnificent sight.
Though the 'seemly' tranquil moment sounded peaceful, but in actual fact we did not get to enjoy it as much when we're fighting the waves, winds and ourselves to move the boat.
The strokes stopped only when we finished our sets.
Catching my breath, it felt good to sweat it all out.
Fouzan's egg, what a scene! ;x
For our biology class, we were supposed to do the egg-in-vinegar-and-see-how-it-bounce experiment.
Fouzan wanted to show me how his egg can bounce, and happily let go of it on jiahao's table.
What actually happened was that the egg broke, just like how you would break an egg on the frying pan.
And the pan was referred to jiahao's table.
STUNNED.
I was shockingly stunned, seriously, like... why it happens to an egg, in class?
What's more, i felt guilty ):
SORRY FOUZAN that you have to do it again ._.
After clearing up the mess, the whole class went to AVA room for Class period.
Mrs Choo was asking: "How high can you bounce?"
WHATT.
Totally reminding me about the egg breaking incident.
dots.
Sunday, canoeing Grad party for the graduates! :D
The plans for the day are like, HAHA and more HAHA.
Hope Kim can come to my church on Sun, then we meet lindsay and go tgt :)
Life can be simple and happy, depending on how you look at it.
Tomorrow i may not say this anymore.
But well at least, Jieyi is a happy girl today :D
Thank God.
Finally it's weekend! :D
I was actually looking forward to the weekend cause i thought that i could catch my sleep. T.T
BUT, i was told that tomorrow have training for sports day at Bedok Stadium.
Grr .__.
8.30, i will be there.
Body there, soul in bed.
Alright.
Tests homework tests homework.
Everyday is the same routine.
You know what i am going to do this weekend?
Of course,
preparing for tests homework tests homework.
._.
Today's training was a slight improvement from the previous trainings in this year.
I could see that we're recovering bit by bit after a one long month break from canoeing for my partner.
Though the progress is slow, but i could feel it and sense it. :)
Well, i concluded that JIEYI IS TOO EXCITED TODAY.
I was actually reminded by two that my strokes were not coordinating with Shona's!
How can that happen man, i can't believe.
The most basic thing that we have to get right, and i screwed it up.
You probably ask why i am excited.
I was so much reminded that TODAY IS FRIDAY, which is the last day of the weekdays.
Practically i wanted to finish it off asap, though it was a little overreacting :P
Though i was rushing, but i was enjoying the waves and the wind, the way the sky 'opened' and poured out it's gleaming sparkles on the waters.
Magnificent sight.
Though the 'seemly' tranquil moment sounded peaceful, but in actual fact we did not get to enjoy it as much when we're fighting the waves, winds and ourselves to move the boat.
The strokes stopped only when we finished our sets.
Catching my breath, it felt good to sweat it all out.
Fouzan's egg, what a scene! ;x
For our biology class, we were supposed to do the egg-in-vinegar-and-see-how-it-bounce experiment.
Fouzan wanted to show me how his egg can bounce, and happily let go of it on jiahao's table.
What actually happened was that the egg broke, just like how you would break an egg on the frying pan.
And the pan was referred to jiahao's table.
STUNNED.
I was shockingly stunned, seriously, like... why it happens to an egg, in class?
What's more, i felt guilty ):
SORRY FOUZAN that you have to do it again ._.
After clearing up the mess, the whole class went to AVA room for Class period.
Mrs Choo was asking: "How high can you bounce?"
WHATT.
Totally reminding me about the egg breaking incident.
dots.
Sunday, canoeing Grad party for the graduates! :D
The plans for the day are like, HAHA and more HAHA.
Hope Kim can come to my church on Sun, then we meet lindsay and go tgt :)
Life can be simple and happy, depending on how you look at it.
Tomorrow i may not say this anymore.
But well at least, Jieyi is a happy girl today :D
Thank God.